daddyville

 There's nothing like trying to teach your child new words while simultaneously trying to delete some from your vocabulary that you probably really shouldn't have been saying any way for the past 15 years(I'm a late fatherhood bloomer). Yeah...so they're Really ingrained..these not-so-very-good words.(and you've had about a thousand recent reasons that you feel all the more habituated by to say them . So you've got that workin' for you,as well.) Also,...added to that is the fact that your  young child's pronunciation is not exactly perfect to start out with. This adds insult to injury in public when they've found their lost doll and they're saying:"I found it.",but everyone else within earshot hears:" I fut it." You look at them and they look at you...and you're thinking I/We really are good parents...and they...well, you really don't know what they're thinking..and that's probably good. It's about that time that I have to give myself a good chuckle on the inside and a small wry smile on the outside that's kind of a cross between humor and embarassment....because truth be told...I hope that was what she was trying to say...

I have always felt and experienced for myself that personal growth is commensurate to the challenge that one faces at that particular time: that the depth of benefit from properly meeting a challenge is equal to the difficulty of the challenge itself. I pray that this is true because when one realizes how impatient and self-centered one has allowed oneself to become and what is required in 'stepping up to the plate' of your life the fear can be staggering,daunting,intimidating. Now.....I am a Happy,Thrilled,and...New to the Fatherhood business kind of guy....I am very glad that I am a Father now,..and not before now because even at 41 I feel like I have the beliefs and self perspectives of a teenager(No offense intended anyone). Perhaps I have in ways that heretofore have not been tested. In fact...I am Sure that is the case. To those of you planning on having children: start your 'patience  mantra' Now!
Love is The Way
Patience is The Way
Kindness is The Way
..and Forgiveness is THE WAY..
    Patience is a Daily Practice for me... I have never felt like I was so close to the edge of sanity that I thought that I might possibly fall off, but now I can say that I have had moments like that. ...Stay Tuned...
 Fatherhood is a Beautiful Blessing for Me and I would not change it for the world,but beware...it will denude you through and through. I have just begun(she's almost 2:-- I know those of you with older kids are laughing. Good. You should be! haha.) and my child is very sweet AND reminds me of Myself at every turn.(I'm always sweet,aren't I ? :)) She is my shadow at this point.( Her mother was just commenting on that tonight.) Absorbing our every move,gesture,word,and nuance. Scary,huh? IT IS,for Sure. A little Two legged computer...Learning,Storing,Processing computer following you around with their eyes always on you. They echo what you say and they know where your buttons are. I can't think of a better Learning situation...can you :)  IT'S LOVE  INSIDE AND OUT,UP,DOWN,AND SIDEWAYS!